From 2mysticwriter on 1 Dec 1993, Wednesday
What more can I do to release the ghost of the old [job, relationship, block, idea, etc.]? What am I not doing?
Feeling still. You buzz about ‘one step ahead’ of yourself, the intellect struggling to keep control. The feelings you believe you are running from are pain, fear, sadness. But you are also avoiding the feelings of joy.
As Mioma has said before, “It’s your life. Paint it with joy as well as understanding.”
I would like to put all of these many things into a bonfire and be done with them for good.
These ‘things’—many are feelings, are they not? You want to put the tag in the fire and leave the gift? No! The whole is connected. The subject, the title of a thing, its name is not enough (usually). With you, the entire experience, which includes feelings, must be reckoned with. In many cases this mean feeling your way through and into the understanding. The intellect may only confuse you. Many times the intellect is especially seductive, the analysis and the figuring out of a thing becomes the game with no solutions when turned to matters of the heart and soul. Turn today to your journal and drawing pad. Let tears come. Let laughter be with you, through you.
Many are with you.
You need not understand.